All posts filed under: Something personal

010. January I love you, but you’re freaking me out.

Ah, the new year! Brand new beginnings, fresh starts, and all that, but I’m beginning to think that January feels like an eternity, yet I keep myself in check, lest the whole year will spin as fast as a Beyblade that’s out of control. Does that make sense? God, I hope so. 2023 was a rollercoaster. It’s a rollercoaster that I do not want to get back on to again. Let me be a bit honest here–the year has been a bloody stressful year. Sure, it has helped me grow and branch out, but it wore me out. It did. It’s not a year that I would wish for my worst enemy to stay in. January feels very much like an extension of 2023. One of my aunts passed away almost a week ago, and while I have more or less accepted her transition from earth to heaven, it doesn’t stop me from feeling the loss very keenly. She has been a huge part of my life–she taught me so much about art, literature, and …

007. Stop the world, I want to get off.

  Yes, I know it’s the name of a musical, but it’s exactly how I felt for the past five weeks. I thought I was okay, but something happened, and it made me realise how wrong I was. But enough about me. How are you all feeling? Have you ever reached the point where you think everything seems to spiral out of control, and it feels like there’s absolutely nothing you can do to stop the spiralling from happening? That was exactly how I felt, and honestly, I am still feeling it now. While the spiralling is gradually slowing down, it wasn’t the kind of slowing down that I wanted. But hey, it’s progress, so I’ll take it. Oh, to have my peace of mind back.

006. It’s fine, we’re fine.

  This is pretty much a “proof of life” post. It’s incredible how fast time flies–one day, we’re starting a whole new year, and today, we’re in the second half. So many things have happened. I know, I know, it’s the age-old excuse, but it’s not an untruth. I’ve been busy with school and I had to deal with many things at work. In addition, I also had to help prepare for our division’s team-building activities, and it was an absolute blast. Since I participated, I was able to recharge my batteries. Being by the sea can do that to you. I was glad I went, as I was in an emotional slump, and I have had one bad mental health day after another. Taking a day off (with people I love at work) was the absolute ticket. I loved every moment of it. I will have a separate photo-dump post because I took masses of pictures and it would be a shame not to share any of it.